Musings for a Monday night
Five and six years ago when I would feel this way, I'd write a blog post, so why not now?
Maybe you will engage with me and comment on the following:
* I am living this strange life where I am learning and doing and learning and doing, and sometimes it seems that I am triping over myself.
* To that end, I go on facebook and see what all my nutrition/health/food people are doing and my thoughts range from inspiration to jealousy. The thing is, as I am trying to undertake the most challenging undergrad program I know of, I simply don't have the same time and energy that I did in my non-student life.
* My old therapist told me that a person can only really do two things well at a time and feel good about it. I think this is true. I can be a midwifery student, write a cookbook, promote myself as a cookbook author, develop a relationship, study Non-Violent Communication, heal myself physically/mentally/emotionally, develop and maintain a regular and frequent yoga and/or meditation practice, sew a new quilt, finish an older quilt, become an expert at herbal healing in pregnancy, find a way to have an income... but I can't manage them all at once to a satisfying degree. I am doing one of these things actively, given that I'm well into the academic semester, and the other... well, it's more of a tie between a few focuses (foci?) and it's really no surprise that I'm not getting a great sense of satisfaction. I need to get on this.
* Here are the questions tho: 1) How do I pick that 2nd place to focus? 2) Can I let some of the other interests and to-dos go until the school semester ends in May? 3) Can you be income-less and still wish for a personal assistant?
Now here's a non sequitur:
* Are you watching Portlandia? Are you thinking, if you haven't yet, that maybe you ought to? If you are from Portland or living there right now I especially want to hear what you think of it.
Please, do decide to engage with me. It'll save me from watching bad tv in order to keep my city girl brain active while I'm living this small town life.
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